on everything that is nothing.

I really don't know what I'm about to write about. I haven't really thought out in my mind the beginning nor the end of this post. so, here goes nothing..

[disclaimer]: i tend to state very obvious, redundant, completely unrelated, or extremely insightful remarks with no objective but to share those thoughts with others. so if you see yourself thinking to yourself, "so what does this mean?", my answer is quite simple: nothing. absolutely nothing.

I realize - rather, constantly reminded - that I am one grand old mess inside and out. i was at red robin's with my housemates the other day (great restaurant with endless fries. check it out!) and one of them pointed out that i'm quite brutally honest to the point that i come off as a sarcastic jerk. o_O

the same housemate also pointed out that i have a tendency of "flatlining" while making comments. in other words, i start a comment such as "there was a guy i thought was strange" and space out for the next minute or two, leaving those around me hanging and guessing what was on my mind. i guess this kind of goes with my "random comments" thing. the funny thing is, it has happened so often that they've proceeded to mimic the flatlining sound (the loooong beep of a heart monitor) whenever it happens. and what's even better is that i flatlined not 2 minutes after he pointed it out. good times.

Yangpa has one of the most beautiful voices i have ever heard. If i ever meet a girl with that kind of voice, I'd marry her on the spot. haha, well, not literally. that would be kind of...hasty, not to mention superficial.

One's perception of what is difficult is merely a state of mind. For instance, when i started this internship, I had a deep loathing of coding. I wasn't any good at it nor did I want to get any better. at least that's what i told myself. i mean, i'm a mechanical engineer; coding is unnecessary in my line of work. 6 weeks later, I've written my own shell scripts and RPM spec files and other gee golly good stuff that I would have otherwise thought impossible for me to do. kinda makes me wonder...what else could i have taught myself and what other opportunities have i missed from my inability to grasp new material and my unwillingness to change perspectives? though it sounds kinda depressing, i've also realized that i can decide at this moment whether i want to continue with my current path or if i want something to change. that, my friends, is the beauty of life.

i drink water like it's my business. shoot, i already downed 4 bottles since lunch.

i think my next post will have a single topic to focus on. maybe i'll write about my roommates.