heart of worship

Psalms 19 (Shane & Shane)

May the words of my mouth
And the meditations of my heart
Be pleasing to You
Pleasing to you

May the words of my mouth
And the meditations of my heart
Be pleasing to You
O, my God

You're my Rock and my Redeemer
You're the reason that I sing
I desire to be a blessing
In Your eyes

Every hour every moment
Lord I want to be Your servant
I desire to be a blessing
In Your eyes

i was recently reminded that praise should always be consistent, because God is consistent. just because you have a bad day or if you just aren't good at it doesn't mean you shouldn't give him your all. otherwise, you're just worshiping for yourself. i'm thankful that He has made me humble over the years to learn this and i pray i can really take it to heart.

that said, i really wish someone would teach me to sing..

my mom flew in to visit me last saturday.  it makes me smile even now to think of it.  sadly, i've spent only about 3 full weeks with her this year. it's funny that just 3 years ago, i wanted to get away from chicago, from everything and everyONE.  now that i've got my wish, i've never been so homesick.  granted, i'm happy where i am and i have no regrets for the decisions i've made since. but i seriously underestimated my connection to chicago and how much i'd miss it. i mean, i take pride in the littlest of things now: my Illinois (ill-E-noy) license plates, my U of I t-shirts and other paraphernalia, my driver's license (snowball's chance in hell i'm going to renew in RI).

side story: i saw a girl in an SUV with illinois plates. i nearly jumped in front of her moving ca and gave her a thumbs up with a crazy smile. i bet she's glad i didn't.